bye 2010, heloooo 2011

The last day of 2010
what do you have on your mind?

Are you happy with what you achieved
are you satisfy with what you did
what do you want to improve for the coming year
what will you do to make your self happier?
these are the questions playing on my mind

2010, indeed a special year to me.
was lucky enough
to fly to Taiwan to teach English
though i earn no money
but what i got
are beyond money could ever buy
I got myself bunch of new sincere friends
got to learn and adapt to different culture
traveling around the island
and know myself better.

And ya, never forget,
my 1st dean list in my life,
indeed, the best new year present ever
for me =)

2011, lies a lot of uncertainties.
will i be lost?
i'll never know
if i'll get to go Italy
and tour Europe again
and my life would be a total different story
or i'll be working
as a teacher? executive? i never know

I guess
i shall work harder in 2011
shed away the extra kilos
and take some pretty pics
before i'm too old and wrinkled
this i promise =)

Whatever what your new year resolution is
what your wish might be
just remember
to love yourself more
and then spread the love you have
to the people around you
for a better new year.



Happy new year my friends!~

Best wishes
sincerely
Princess Megumi S.

I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing,
to help me cope with anything.
I have a dream, a fantasy,
to help me through reality.

*modified from the song 'i have a dream'

I, have a dream,
a dream too good to be true,
and when I am lost,
I start to dream,
for dream,
will lead me to,
where my heart belongs to,
what I've wanted for,
in the dream land,
so free,
with only me and myself.


And now,
I'm lost again,
thinking about my future after graduating.
Shall I,
still continue my dream
or wake up
to face the reality?


Dream,
however great, will be still a dream;
but one will never go far,
if he has no dream.

dream o dream

A lot of memories flashed back when i was chatting with my dear bestie. We used to be in the same class in primary 6, spent lots time together playing piano, cello, going for performances, sipping coffee and green tea together, and yes, chatting endlessly. And ya, we did have a dream.....

Have our burdens on the shoulders,
been too heavy,
that we forgot to let our heart flies,
and do the things
we always wanted to?

Have we confined ourselves,
by the people around you,
to do only what we are supposed to,
but not what we wish to?

Have us been tired
of fighting for our little dream
that we bare since we were children,
and slowly let go the spirit
and allow our dream to vanish into the thin air
like rose petals flying further and further away
from your palm
without you having anything that could be done...

My dear friend, i do hope one day, our dream may come true. You'll have you own coffee shop and i'll have my boutique next to you. We'll be sticking together everyday, like we used to =)

Lets wish... cross our fingers, that our dream, may come true.

I love you my dear friend, Vwen ^^

when death strucks

I was so shocked knowing the death of my friend's mom. Even when knowing that she suffered from liver cancer last week was shocking enough for me. I feel so sorry for my friend, that she has to deal with the loss of her mom. No words can express the pain and sorrow, and nothing could be done to forget about it. What i can do, is just wishing that my friend could stay strong, and take care of herself. May her mom rest in peace.

It makes me ponder upon life. How scary it is that it just come like a tornado and bring away your loved ones just before you get to react and try to stop it. No, no one can ever stop a fierce tornado. And the tornado didn't bring your memories away with it.

Being a girl her in 20s, it's really sad that this thing happened to her. It's the age of exploring the world, and fall in love, get married, or even become a mom in late 20s or early 30s. And now, she just lost her mom. The joy is being buried. The sky turns gray and the world just go upside down. I wished i could attend her mom's funeral, at least a hug is what i could offer.

Life is full of uncertainties. Never fear of voicing your love to your friends and family, before it's too late. Live life to the fullest and share and care for others.

To friends, who lost their loved ones too, be strong. Remember that although one's away, his / her love remains.

Stay Young @ Heart

How long ago was it
the last time u rode on a wooden horse
and enjoyed your fun time
with no worry, fear,and stress?

How long ago was it
the last time u smile sincerely
from the bottom of your heart
to the others
even though they treat u coldly
but u just feel like
u wana smile?
A smile that so genuine that
touches the souls of others?


How long ago was it
the last time u enjoyed the sun
shining through the air
that you breath
enjoying the warmth of the rays
and the bliss of mother nature?

Go,
run wildly if u want to,
laugh madly if u want to,
if that makes u happy,
and makes u feel that
today is better than yesterday
and tomorrow will be yet
another good day.

Stay young at heart,
u'll wonder
the greatest joy of life
is not owning the material things
but being able to
appreciate every moment
that you have.

thank you for reading

A course mate of mine told me she had been following my blog since I went to Taiwan. It was really touching to know that. Wanted to send her a msg on fb but sad, she deleted her account... so, wana say THANK YOU my dear Tika, ur words motivated me.

Am gona blog more often like i used to =)

U made my day, love u always ^^

Here's a kiss for u, muackiessssss

charcoal princess

Argh, am super dark now.
Turned into a charcoal...
perhaps saying it's the color of dark chocolate
would sounds better,hehe

The reason???
Cycled in Taiwan for twice
both took whole day to finish the tour.
Tho am a burned toast
am no regretting, not even a slight bit,
because the fun i had
was so so great =p

And now......
I gona drink more lemon juice
eat more fruits
to get back my fair tone,
cz who dun1 b a snow white,
but a charcoal princess??? (^o^)

I did NOT cry, lol

This is me
standing in the airport
with my luggage
packed with souvenirs
and memories


This time
I really think i do grow
cz i didn't drop a tear
because i want us
to depart happily
tho we are sad


Thanks QQ and Ah Di
for the little notes
dropped secretly in my bag.
Was real touched while reading them
wanted to cry when having my breakfast alone
in Taipei main station


Thanks tomo for bringing me my huge luggage
it's so darn heavy i know
coming with a motor in the hot sun
you are such a good friend
glad that i've know u since the day
i stepped on the soil of taiwan.


Thanks Ting Ting for rushing to the airport
and thanks for the handmade card
and the present u gave
remember our promise
of wearing our 'sister dress' together,lol
and hey, i'll let you sleep in my toilet too
if u do come malaysia,muahaha
love u so much my dear


Just like what i read
from a book i bought in Cheng Pin Bookstore
"Why frown when the flowers fall?
Should look forward for the flower blossoms"
"Why feel sad for the sun set?
Should anticipate the beautiful starry night sky"


That's why
I did not cry
because I know
we'll meet again another day


Take care =)

Bye, Taiwan

6 weeks, really passed very quickly. It was like I've only been here not long ago, and now, it's time to say Goodbye... Looking back the pictures taken in Taiwan, I really felt like crying, because I know I'll miss everyone here dearly...


I still remember I was asked y I chose to come Taiwan, and I replied I want to know how different is the Chinese culture there and the Chinese culture in Malaysia, and I've never been to this part of the world... So here am I, exploring the whole new world, discovering life...

My task was to teach English in 2 primary schools in a remote area. Gosh, the mosquitoes in Taiwan is real scary, especially in d village places where I service. Got bitten till whole legs swollen and full of red patches, was so scared and wanted to cry each time I looked at my legs, afraid that there'll b scars left. But when my body started to have some immune to the bites, I'm leaving Taiwan already.... should I be happy or sad???

I feel great to see my students improving each day. Their attitude towards English really changed, from not interested or even reluctant to try, to loving to come to class and even asked for extra classes. Although I cant teach much in this short period, I did tried my best to teach them some songs, told them stories, explained some Malaysia culture and taught them some values and stories of life... Leaving the kids is really hard... They hugged me in turns, kissed me, gave me lots of gifts, drawings, letters, and told me they'll miss me, asking me to go back visit them, and some even asked me not to go, and wana follow me back in my suitcase. I cant control my tears when I see them crying and looking at me with such sad but loving faces...

Besides teaching, I've got to explore Taiwan with other EPs from Malaysia and Canda, yah, and also some Taiwanese sometimes lar. We've been to many places, and never fail to go for trips every weekends... Even the Taiwanese are shocked that we can be so energetic and went to places that even some of them had not been to. Haha, we are a bunch of curious and fun-loving EPs~~~ no matter how tired, we'll still go around... Together, we left our footprints in Taiwan, and you guys do left ur footprints in my heart too. Love u guys so much.... We've changed form strangers, to acquaintance, to close friends... We'd laughed and cried together, did funny and crazy things, tried lots of Taiwan food, walked around till our back aches, shoulders pain, and legs tired, took buses and trains... lots n lots of memories I have which u guys left... Hugs~~~ I'm really happy to meet true friends here... I have many words to say to each of u, perhaps wil send u guys email,haha... *privacy mar*

This is my first time cycling for a day, and got burned in Dan sui,

am officially a brownie =p

Was forced to try STINKY toufu..sucks, smells like toilet and drain (*o*)

We still rock although our hair are messy =p

Sun or Rain, we are always together~~

Of course, we went shopping, and they gave me a nickname : Shopping Queen~~






I really love all of u.... u made my days in Taiwan really happy and exciting...."how do i live without u~~~~ how do i ever, ever survive~~~ how do i o how do i live~~~~"(singing ^^)

Hands in hands, our friendship never ends!~ =)

Specially thanks to Aiesecers of UM and NCTU for making this happened. Thanks all of u.... Big hug... Love ya all~~

A d@y oUt witH KidS to TheMe P@rk~

Hehe, got to go to a theme park with the graduated students. Got in with a student ticket, which stated 'Only for kids under 12', lmao. The students were like "What???" "Teacher,haha, kid's ticket".... I duno ar, they gave me so i just took and enter, perhaps school paid for me =p And i got in smoothly too, no1 stopped me,lol. Am I just being short? Perhaps it's a good thing eh!?

And the teacher said I look even more excited than the kids, do u agree??? =)

Together we played most of the games, and ate ice-creams and burgers. Was a great day. I love my schools, I love my kids ^^

And when we got out from the theme park, the worker asked me "how's your graduation trip?" I was like @.@" Sigh, do I looked just the same like them?????

*am gona upload all pics taken asap when bac, stay tuned =p ~~

cried for the first time in taiwan

I thought i can be strong enough, and i never teared when departed with my family, never teared when i reached airport and don't know where i'll meet the people here, never teared when we were lost on the way to the aiesec camp in a remote area with no lampost all the way and it's freaking scary, never teared when i got mosquitoe bites all over my legs and arms and it's ultra itchy and the red spots don't dissaper, and never teared when i gotta carry my heavy luggage all the way up to 3rd floor and all the way to take buses..but i teared when i told daddy i miss them all in the email. A rush of emotion got me uncontrollable. I just started to cry in front of the computer in the library, my new office, with me alone...

I stopped myself, telling myself i gotta learn to be a strong, and independant girl. I gotta start to grow, to be an adult, and not a baby anymore,lol. The students need me, and i need to learn to be a good role model to them. I'll learn, and i gotta have trust in myself.

I can do it!!! I gona work hard and strike for the best~ I gona break through the pupa that hugged me tight in order to be a beautiful butterfly which flys elegantly in the sky ^^

kids talk

Played basketball with the kids when i had no class. Saw them laughing and having a good time, so decided go go over to take some pics of the cuties. Then they came to me and we started talking. And i asked if the can teach me basketball, because i don't know how to play AT ALL,lol. Am phobia with big balls, haha....

They taught me where to stand and how to shoot. And i did tried a few times. When i got it in, all of us were screaming and jumping, including me of course,haha. When i failed to dunk, they told me "It's ok", "Try again", "Never mind", "It's nearly done"..... wao wao wao, this really warms me up. Their words, from the mouth of the kids, trying to motivate me, is touching. Since when we've all forgotten to tell others and ourselves "try again" and "never mind" when we faced failures? I think we are too afraid to fail, thus we have no guts to go beyond our limit and out of our comfort zone.

And here I am, spending my time with the lovely kids of two schools...

I wish the days here will be a fun and memorable ones^^

and i started to miss home.....and my teddy....and my bed....

A journey of self discovery

Am going to taiwan soon. A trip of self discovery i should say.

From the 1st day of preparation, I get to know myself better. What is my strength and what is my weakness. When searching for the materials for teaching, only i realized that i already forgot how to play 'gasing' and 'wau', and i missed my childhood terribly, how good is it if i can play all that with my friends and family again, like i used to,lol. Only then i realized i don't really know my country that well,haha. I didn't know the exact lyrics of 'Rasa Sayang', and had to google it =p I've prepared some pictures, bought some postcards with images of Malaysia, and even tried out on piano by myself for the harmony of 'Rasa Sayang', and hope that the kids there will enjoy the learning I'm going to bring them.

Wonder how much can i give and leave in their little heart and soul. Will they remember that when they was young, a Teacher Sharon had once told them something that they'll remember for the rest of their life? lol... Hope i'll teach them good stuffs, not bad ones...need to control myself, no foul words should be said in class, oops,haha...


I've packed my suitcase, and am ready to rock Taiwan,lol.... Hunks, here I come!~

Gona take lots pics and share on fb with my friends..

Take care evryone, and keep in touch!!!~

Sick, damn it ~~~

Being sick
caused me to think
while I was lying on my bed
trying hard to sleep
but can't
because my nose is painful
due to sinus


Get me to wonder
how great a small bacteria
can do
to affect people's life
alter people's timetable
destroy people's morale
damn it
damn it
damn it


While feeling week
i felt that
i have no control
over my life...
what a scary thought


It really makes me salute
to people who suffered
from chronic diseases
and yet
still stay strong
carry on their life
and responsibility...
Won't they felt 100x or perhaps 1000x
greater pain
than I do??


I think
it's the time
for me to do more charity work
involve in more organizations
which helps others
who suffered
and helps to mend
the broken hearts
and shattered dreams
with my tiny bits of power.


You can do it,
Sharon!~
and friends,
so do you (^.^)

ps: whenever i think of charity, i think of him, my bestie, vin...proud of u =p

loving you

I believe
that love is always
lingering around us.....


Was so stupid
that I've lost a lot of chances
to be loved
but sometimes
losing is gaining too
at least
I'm having friends
who will last for life
and still love each other
though in a different way


I don't know if you will ever know
I'm always so glad to have you with me
although you are ever so busy
just a message of care
is ever so enough for me


I've lost it once
I'm not going to lose it again
for now
I'll grab you
and hugs tightly


I'm loving you
my friendsssssssss